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My boyfriend and I watched a documentation about Indie gaming yesterday. Not that I'm so much into gaming, but I do enjoy an occasional documentary. And if there's one thing that I have in common with those Indie game makers is that we're both artists and we're both working on an own project, although that project is very different in nature. The movie followed a few of those indie game makers through the making and publishing of their projects.
One of the people that were followed, was Phil Fish, the developer of a game called Fez.
While his game seemed to be pretty good looking (I'm not a gamer, so I've never played it), the drama around the making and the release of the game was what I remembered most. Threatening to kill a fellow co-worker and that kind of stuff. At the end of the movie, both I and my boyfriend came to the conclusion that he certainly had talent when it came to making games, but should probably hire a spokesperson to do the press-related stuff for him. Because he didn't seem to be able to handle all the publicity. Not at all.
And then the sudden realization came to me; I'm probably just as bad.
The Oatmeal recently made a very realistic comic about it:
This is my life.
This exactly.
I too have felt miserable about a single comment, although there are countless other people supporting me. People that are close friends to me, and are far more important to me than just one trolling stranger on the internet. I too have been frustrated by technical difficulties, that made it feel like the whole world turned against me. Like many artists, I too might've become too personally attached to a project that I'd been working on for years. And I've totally hated it when people talked shit about my art without knowing what is't about (then again, who doesn't?).
At least I had the common sense not to take it out on twitter (not to mention the fact that I don't even have a twitter account) because I'm well aware the internet is a war-zone when it comes to that. That doesn't change the heart crushing feeling when somebody takes it out on you, though.
Knowing all that, it sometimes makes me wonder:
Should I still go out there and expose myself?
Should I hide?
Or should I just hope that by the time I get that much exposure, I've made enough money to afford hiring a proper spokesperson?
I'm still alive
It's been a while since I last posted and people have sending me worried messages, so I wanted to let you all know I'm doing fine. I don't have corona and I'm not dead. My computer broke down a while ago, and the consistent problems of working with a broken system and not having the money to properly fix or replace it eventually made me very demotivated to draw. As an artist I've always suffered from self-doubt and massive imposter syndrome. No matter how good I get, I'm always critical at my work. The last batch of commissions I did (even though for a good cause) just emphasized that feeling of not being creatively ready to venture into professional spheres. I honestly respect the people who do, but it's not for me. The pressure of having to churn out quality work on a time limit (next to my regular work) burned me out, and I needed some time off the internet to recuperate. Thank you all for your supportive messages. I'm trying to pick up my art again. Slowly, and working on my
Emergency commissions for vet bills [ON HOLD]
Update April 23, 2020
I'm literally blown away by all the response I got.
I have now filled up a first batch of commissions.
As much as will help me cover the initial bill. And as much as will be possible to deliver, considering I have to do those drawings in my free time (I have a regular job to attend as well).
I expect to deliver commissions somewhere over the upcoming 6 weeks.
Depending on the situation with the cat I might open up more commissions in the future.
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Hey guys.
My beloved cat, Pepper, fell sick. I had to go take her to the vet. It's at this moment yet uncertain what's wrong with her, but she needed to get b
Git gud
It's so tiring to hear people dismiss the ability to create art as sheer talent, and tell me they could never do the same as I do. What do you expect me to answer? That some divine being came down and blessed me with the ability to do art? And you haven't got that divine skill, so you never could do it, and we should all pity you for it?
The truth is that there isn't much of a difference, except that I spend a lot of time creating art. I learned how to draw hands, because I've drawn hundreds of them over the last couple of years. I learned writing because I write nearly every day, and read books when I don't. I spend a lot of time creating a
2019 art goals
Leaving this year as a reminder to myself.
:bulletblack: Drawing more detailed environments
:bulletgreen: Drawing more figures in perspective (Ref: http://www.posemaniacs.com/ ?)
:bulletgreen: Drawing more hands & feet
:bulletgreen: Finish writing my 5175 short story
:bulletblack: Joining#100headschallenge (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0A_kQsxeeTE)
:bulletred: Joining AdorkaStock (https://www.deviantart.com/adorkastock)'s DEJ 2019 (if organized this year)
If you're aware of any fun art challenges I might be interested in (geared towards improvement), please let me know.
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"What good is salt that has lost it's taste? It is only good to be thrown and be trampled by the foot of men."
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"You always miss 100% the shots you don't make."
"We grow in the bad times, it is like manure for plants, it may reek but it has vital nurtrients that allow it to flourish. What do we learn or get from the good times?"
We'll never shine if we aren't lit. And if we are lit, will we be out-shined? Is that a bad thing?
How can you know if you don't try?
"What good is salt that has lost it's taste? It is only good to be thrown and be trampled by the foot of men."
"A man who owns a candle doesn't hide it under the tube, but puts it on a spot where everyone can see."
"You always miss 100% the shots you don't make."
"We grow in the bad times, it is like manure for plants, it may reek but it has vital nurtrients that allow it to flourish. What do we learn or get from the good times?"
We'll never shine if we aren't lit. And if we are lit, will we be out-shined? Is that a bad thing?
How can you know if you don't try?