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It all started a few years ago, with a single piece of art. 
Project WE Promotional Art 7 by yuumei
I can remember having seen digital art before, but it never really impacted me. The fact that it wasn't real, on paper, and I couldn't touch it, made it somehow distant to me. Yet, for whatever reason, this piece was different to me. I can still remember staring at it from the screen of my computer, not being able to grasp how someone was able to make art that flawless, pretty and beautiful. And how a person was able to express that much emotion with just a few brush strokes. Call me stupid, or naive. But I just couldn't "get" it.

I think it was that piece of art that gave me a reason to try. Or more, a direction that I wanted to go in.
Before that time I was like a clueless wanderer. I've been writing a story for years. But I was basically lost in a maze of what I wanted or what I could do when it came to drawing stuff. My lack of skill and fear of failure got me trapped to the point that it got me paralyzed to try anything new.
the Hounds of Tindalos by jameswolf

Admitted. My first attempts to submit drawings to DeviantArt weren't a huge success. But looking back realistically, I guess nobody's first attempts are.
I submitted some stuff. But like most people, lacked getting the proper response. And ended up feeling even more alone and distanced from the great artists that I admired from a distance. And soon enough I started to realize that if I wanted to get something done, I needed to change my approach, because otherwise I would never get seen by people.
Random by Unodu

I started looking for sketches, instead of finished works. Sketches that were still done by skilled people, but showed enough lines to actually show hits and bits of how it was done. 
This, along with countless anatomy books and tutorials helped me pushing forward in the direction I wanted to do. 
Strike by yuumeiSD: Mr.winter by CosmicSpectrumm
-14o712- by AmdhusciasWarm Cold by Ninjin-nezumi

From that point on, I basically picked up my pencil and started drawing. The key was not to give up. Even despite the first results looking miserable, my handicap being a terrible hindrance in the process, and the fact that there were day that I absolutely despised myself. Eventually it did pay off. Even though improvement was only slow... I did get better.
Sketchdump November 2012 - 02 by DamaiMikazSketchdump April 2013 by DamaiMikaz

...even at digital art. A medium that I always deemed impossible for me due to my handicap
Those Hollow Eyes by DamaiMikaz

And along with my art, grew my confidence. 
It's funny how time passes so slowly that things like improvement often go unnoticed. But improvement in art wasn't by far the only skill that went unnoticed. Along with my art, grew my ability to write in English (I'm not a native English person -- for those who didn't know yet) and my ability to communicate with people on the website. It didn't only impact who I was as an artist, but also who I was on the site. Having to confidence to write in another language, even despite mistakes, meant being able to help others. And while doing so, making some friends for life.
Unconditional Love by kaiser-mony

Wanting to do something back for the community, I started helping people out. Writing about the one thing that I was probably good at at that time. And the one thing I probably actually knew something about (due to my previous job experience). Internet & Marketing. I've always hated that depressed feeling that hung around the lesser noticed artists in such great community. The feeling that they were not good enough to get noticed. Probably because that's what I've felt so many times before myself, even though I knew the statistics.

I wanted to empower people. To tell them that they were in fact good enough. That they were totally fine the way they were, but that the goals they aimed for were just too damn unrealistic.
I wanted them to know the truth about how hard it is to promote things on the current day internet. The facts about the internet marketing that I work with every day. In the hopes that knowing that would at least put their distorted image about their own art into perspective.
Above all Limits by Lapis-Razuri

But thinking of myself of nothing more than just an average artist, I was unaware of the effect it had on the community.
I was unprepared. It blew me away. It captivated me. Fascinated me, because I am a curious person by nature. 
Northern Lights by KuldarLeement

But sometimes deeply scared me as well. Because after all, we artists are emotional beings...
coming true - 6x6inch by agnes-cecile

DeviantArt is 14 years old, but I've only been here for 7 years. Yet it feels like I've been there for ages.
I've met so many people.
Seen so much art.
And learned so much.

What I've learned through all those years?

That nothing comes naturally. 
That art means you have to fight monsters -- your inner demons -- to overcome them and become a stronger person.
The Werewolf by Niconoff

That's about being persistent. About about not giving up, even though situations might seem hopeless and it hurts.
Give them back to me! by Vvlad-vVolfen

That it's about having the courage to take that leap. 
MtG: Gift of Orzhova by algenpfleger

About giving shape to the chaos in your mind
Crowned with chaos by DamaiMikaz

And who knows, in a a few years, when you look back at all this from a distance. And you realize how far you've gotten, you know that it was all worth it.
MUSHISHI by zhongbiao

This was my journey so far.
Start building yours today! 
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Sketchda Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Enjoyed reading! Thank you :)
x-Riivenge Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
This is so inspiring. ;w;
AbsentMindDeviant Featured By Owner Edited Oct 18, 2014  Student General Artist
So, what about the barrier that scares me to guts, TALENT, is it real?, did you grow using a 'talent' or you grew your art with 'hard work', talent is what scares me, not having a talent is what scares me that I will never be an artist, Talent is like something in the genetics that you are born with it, have talent and you become an artist, no genetical talent, no art future for you, I want to make sure, I want to see someone who grew his art without talent, to know I have hope.......
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
In the sense of genetics, I have muscle weakness and other kinds of weaknesses and injury that will make me everything but 'lucky' when it comes to making art. So no, I don't consider myself 'genetically lucky' or talented in that regard, nor do I think I have any inapt talent. Everything that I did came from using the few practice hours I have and build them up slowly, until I got to the level that I am now. The only think that I'm genetically 'lucky' with might be intelligence. I've never had problems with learning, so I guess that makes it easier to learn art (or any craft) then when you have learning problems. But other than that; it's just practice. 
AbsentMindDeviant Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Student General Artist
Oh thank you, that was really heart warming.
Eyes-Unblinded Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2014  Student General Artist
Even though I'm not popular, I've never felt too depressed about it. But if I ever do, I want to have this post to look at. Your art has always made me want to draw, to work hard so I can produce the beauty and magic that you can.
flutist Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014  Professional General Artist
greatly composed, message taken to my heart.
Xx--Flame--xX Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so inspiring, I love the message you convey to us and you've gotten so far! You're amazing!!Llama Emoji-46 (This and That) 
LadyElasa Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is a beautiful journal with gorgeous art. ^ ^ You've been inspiration to me. I'm no where near your skill and like you I'm a writer that likes to draw her characters. It's neat to know I'm not the only one out there who does this. This almost made me cry. Thank you sharing.
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
dr8gonwolf666 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Student
The ending of this journal is beautiful :)
MHcomics Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014
That was so beatiful of you to say because you are such an inspiration for so many people, I wanna be like that some day. Thanks for sharing this with us
shirokarasu4 Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
It was beautiful. Seriously.
You talk about this drawing that gave you a purpose, a goal. This work, which you have so touched by the emotion it contained.
Well know that your art had the same effect on me. Anima imprisoned
Queen-Soulia Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awesome story, I will never made one . Simply because mine is filled with to much pain and I just wish to move on from my past.
Some come here to find glory, some end up with scars, but never forget to rise.
jatinder21 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014
Im glad that I watch you cuz you're amazing . Every drawing of yours is amazing . DA needs artists like you.
solid32 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow!!!All you say happened to me,when I started my way on DeviantArt,few people follow my artwork,it's all like you've written,do what you love,draw what you love,and never give up!!
My deviants aren't so good as yours,but I love them,maybe that's what really matters,and maybe so much people feeled in the same way anytime(and I also learn english here,sorry if you don't understand me)
Just wanna say to you thank's,because one day you were like me,a "rookie",but I will continue with my arts,my skills,my wishes and my dreams,and will never give up!
From an artist to another,thank's for hear me.
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
TheDragonsSmile Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
"about giving shape to the chaos in your mind" that's the sentence that stuck out most to me^^
IsoChi Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I'm speechless.
but I'm glad you made this, I know many people who need it and I will show it to them.
  So many people are afraid to try again at the slightest bit of failure.
i know this will help many people, so I thank you for making this!!
Hntpo Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I always ( without actually think about it ) thought we improve our drawing simply by drawing, and your story kinda opened my eyes, I should work at least as hard as you did if I really want to get the thing :)
PRISMkidd Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Student General Artist
Oh my, I couldn't help but cry while reading this. You're words are so very inspirational. I really look up to you, I do, because some people (myself included) who don't have a handicap like you sometimes take art for granted and they don't realize that when people say "practice every day" they mean it and that you actually have to sit for hours and study and practice and analyze and practice some more. For those people it doesn't take as long and it may be easier to draw, but it can turn them into soft, squishy procrastinators.

Your one of my idols who I look up to and respect because of this.
I can only keep trying and experimenting and hoping that what I'm doing is working for now. One day I hope to be able to look back on the path I took and feel as amazing as your words have inspired me.
Dripzo-The-Potato Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Can't agree more with you!!!
PRISMkidd Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Student General Artist
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug: Thanks for your kind words
PRISMkidd Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Student General Artist
No need to thank me.
1deathgod Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Professional Writer
You are such an inspiration.  I know I will never make masterpieces in the realm of digital art (or just about any art besides the written kind; I don't have the time to devote to it), but a lot of what you talk about applies to things beyond art.  We all want to be the very best at what we do right this moment, but it just doesn't work that way.  Thank you for putting that into perspective.
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh, don't worry.
I won't be making masterpieces like the ones I featured any soon either XD
WhenLifeCrashedDown Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014
Damn   Amazing story!
Light-Lein Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love your story and the way you added those amazing works to give it a visual touch! I hope you still have many nice years here in which you can learn more yourself and inspire others with your words and works :D!
Yowin Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Student Digital Artist
so inspiring
TheDagmar Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
kierwiny Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
whoops can only comment my opinion now since I was too busy lately, anyway. I'd start my own DeviantArt Story but I think it's still too early for me, I need to go further and dig deeper. :D
bribesdemoi Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014
Love how you told your story.
boxingglovehands Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
got to say this story, it's superb.
SkyrimVse Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014
Path to perfection is available to all. Tools - a foot, fantasy - it's the eyes, pictures - it's new steps. (с) Skyrimvse
Lonear94 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist
:) (Smile) Heart 
AxisofDestruction Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Great story, nice to see and hear your perspective on things!
movedelsewhere Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Student General Artist
BethZChronicler Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Student General Artist
Amazing story!
carrb7021 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014
cool story!!! :meow:
FrankMR Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very touching and inspiring!
bunnychichan Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Very cool *^*
keiko-artz Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The more I learn about you, the more I like you. You're very inspiring :heart: 
NinjaWonders Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
This is great!!!!
VIRULEINCE Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014
This was a very clever way to feature art, and put it all into an inspirational package while explaining your reason for being here! Nice job on that! ;)
I am glad you have gotten so far from when you started out, you surely deserve it! 400 comments a day, that sure is dedication! :XD:  
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It might help that I just like to interact with people anyway :D
VIRULEINCE Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014
Ah yes, I am sure! xD 
I would like to interact with people more, I just have so much to do, plus it doesn't help I am shy. xnx I feel bad for faving and running but I am always feeling short on time! xD  It is a lame excuse though. :p 
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm shy too.
It helps that I'm behind a screen, though. Takes away some of the shyness :la:
Enerin Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
At this point I think I should just favorite all of your journals, they're just so inspirational. One thing that stood out for me on this one is the way you phrased "skill comes with persistence," and you just did it in a way that sounded right, which made all the difference for me
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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