Like the title says; I'm going to take break for a while.
My health has become quite the issue over the last few months.
It seems like the recent car crash
brought me more physical damage than I initially thought. Even though the doctors that checked me directly after the accident told me everything was fine, it has been everything but
fine up until now. Despite daily training and many visits to the physical therapist, my neck is still hurt and the pain causes frequent migraine attacks. Needless to say; I've been nothing but tired until now, so badly that even attending my regular job has become quite the challenge. Most of the days I fall asleep straight after work, only to wake up still being tired the next morning. It's frustrating. The whole thing just feels like one big clusterfuck wrecking my body and, as for now, I haven't got a clue on how to deal with it.
I went to the doctor last week for a second opinion, and I will be send at the hospital for another checkup in time, as they assume it's a whiplash injury.
The problem is; things like these take time in a country like mine, in which hospitals come with long waiting lists by default. It's gonna take at least a month before my first
appointment, and by then we're not even talking about treatment.
Up until a few weeks ago, DeviantArt was quite fun to me. Replying and making a lot of friends... you know the drill.
The recent happenings, however, have changed things in that. Over the last few weeks I've been told to die
, slandered in the comments of journals for close to no reason, accused of tracing/copying, and had to deal with a hacking attempt as well. While I can usually just shrug, think to myself "haters gonna hate" and ignore... I lately find myself having troubles with that and thinking "fuck this shit" far too often.
The truth is; I don't have that much energy to spare lately. And I would like to spend that energy on things that I enjoy, rather than fretting over the fact that people can be so downwards hateful or having to defend myself from all kinds of stupid accusations. I know that strict moderation (simply block & delete everything that I dislike) might solve part of it. However, that doesn't change the fact that I still have to read stuff and spend energy on negativity. Energy that I don't have at the moment.
I realize that there are many nice people out here. Many people that feel sad to see me go.
I realize that the more people you gather, the more hate you'll eventually get. And that it's hard to avoid
that kind of things when everything you submit gets 5000 views per default. Which led me to the conclusion that, rather than disabling comments, I should just stop uploading for a while and leave DA's inbox for what it is.
For now, I prefer to focus on actually making art and writing story's, rather than replying to all the comments.
Oh, and to give you something to do while I'm away:
I'm somewhere strangely curious about the amount of comments that will accumulate while I'm away and won't do my daily inbox-cleaning. So while we're at it;
The person that guesses the amount of messages
--artworks excluded-- I have upon my return (or comes closes to this number), gets 500 points
Oh, and if you find yourself in need of some motivation in art; here ya go... 1 2 3 4 5 6
and some more
Or some random music; here
I won't be gone forever, so...
See you around!TLDR version; I'll be gone for a while. Guess the amount of messages in my inbox upon return and win 500 points.