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Like the title says; I'm going to take break for a while.

My health has become quite the issue over the last few months.
It seems like the recent car crash brought me more physical damage than I initially thought. Even though the doctors that checked me directly after the accident told me everything was fine, it has been everything but fine up until now. Despite daily training and many visits to the physical therapist, my neck is still hurt and the pain causes frequent migraine attacks. Needless to say; I've been nothing but tired until now, so badly that even attending my regular job has become quite the challenge. Most of the days I fall asleep straight after work, only to wake up still being tired the next morning. It's frustrating. The whole thing just feels like one big clusterfuck wrecking my body and, as for now, I haven't got a clue on how to deal with it.

I went to the doctor last week for a second opinion, and I will be send at the hospital for another checkup in time, as they assume it's a whiplash injury.
The problem is; things like these take time in a country like mine, in which hospitals come with long waiting lists by default. It's gonna take at least a month before my first appointment, and by then we're not even talking about treatment. 

Up until a few weeks ago, DeviantArt was quite fun to me. Replying and making a lot of friends... you know the drill.
The recent happenings, however, have changed things in that. Over the last few weeks I've been told to die, slandered in the comments of journals for close to no reason, accused of tracing/copying, and had to deal with a hacking attempt as well. While I can usually just shrug, think to myself "haters gonna hate" and ignore... I lately find myself having troubles with that and thinking "fuck this shit" far too often.
The truth is; I don't have that much energy to spare lately. And I would like to spend that energy on things that I enjoy, rather than fretting over the fact that people can be so downwards hateful or having to defend myself from all kinds of stupid accusations. I know that strict moderation (simply block & delete everything that I dislike) might solve part of it. However, that doesn't change the fact that I still have to read stuff and spend energy on negativity. Energy that I don't have at the moment.

I realize that there are many nice people out here. Many people that feel sad to see me go.
I realize that the more people you gather, the more hate you'll eventually get. And that it's hard to avoid that kind of things when everything you submit gets 5000 views per default. Which led me to the conclusion that, rather than disabling comments, I should just stop uploading for a while and leave DA's inbox for what it is. 
For now, I prefer to focus on actually making art and writing story's, rather than replying to all the comments.

Oh, and to give you something to do while I'm away:
I'm somewhere strangely curious about the amount of comments that will accumulate while I'm away and won't do my daily inbox-cleaning. So while we're at it;
The person that guesses the amount of messages --artworks excluded-- I have upon my return (or comes closes to this number), gets 500 points :points:

Oh, and if you find yourself in need of some motivation in art; here ya go... 1 2 3 4 5 6 and some more
Or some random music; here

I won't be gone forever, so...
See you around!

TLDR version; I'll be gone for a while. Guess the amount of messages in my inbox upon return and win 500 points.
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midnight21 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i don't know you but I will keep you in my prayers. i wish you a full recovery :)
Emberguard Featured By Owner May 9, 2014   General Artist
SiM-Mi Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
SafeSolemn442 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014
don't let the nay sayers bother you
hope you feel better soon even though this was weeks ago
lilylighty Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Reading this, I realize I have been pushing myself to hard to stay on here. Not taking break, just pushing and pushing. I never really thought about it stressing myself.

I have a large project to work on. I thought I could get it done over the next few days. But I think I am going to leave it until things get easier. Its kinda hard, 3 out of the 7 people in my family have depression. I am only doing 4 clubs, this year. And now I realize I need to take a break and stabilize me before continuing on with artwork.

Thanks, So much.
You are a amazing person, you really have inspired me and made me realize a lot :).

Thank you,
Lily lighty.
MisfitArtbaby Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014  Professional General Artist
It would depend on how long you are gone... I would average it. Hmm... I would say about 2500 in 4 months of absence so about 625 per month. LOL! Feel better and be happy!
PindiiPoo Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
get well so soon sis! 
God bless u always Hug
take care there Huggle! 
Ko-Ton Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014

Well being a doctor myself I can tell you the first thing thehave to do is make some Rx. These will not be final, since many people have a rectification of the lordosis (that's the natural vertebrae curve) and it doesnt concludes you have a whiplash. Then depending of your age an other factors you might have a disc protrusion that could be aggravated by the whiplash, or maybe is just that you are a slow healer, since most whiplashes heal in about 1-2 weeks. My recommendation: Ibuprofen, maybe some muscular relaxant like Tiocolchicosid and lots and lost of rehab and massages.

About the haters... just take them to Sparta and let Leonidas take care of them
Exat Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
My guess would be 1999.
Damn I really want to see some new art from you.
Its been too long allready QQ
LiliaKatie Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student Artist
I will miss you a lot, but it's ok, I really really wish you the best! Take care! and you're a really inspiration! Love you!
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