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Like the title says; I'm going to take break for a while.
My health has become quite the issue over the last few months.
It seems like the recent car crash brought me more physical damage than I initially thought. Even though the doctors that checked me directly after the accident told me everything was fine, it has been everything but fine up until now. Despite daily training and many visits to the physical therapist, my neck is still hurt and the pain causes frequent migraine attacks. Needless to say; I've been nothing but tired until now, so badly that even attending my regular job has become quite the challenge. Most of the days I fall asleep straight after work, only to wake up still being tired the next morning. It's frustrating. The whole thing just feels like one big clusterfuck wrecking my body and, as for now, I haven't got a clue on how to deal with it.
I went to the doctor last week for a second opinion, and I will be send at the hospital for another checkup in time, as they assume it's a whiplash injury.
The problem is; things like these take time in a country like mine, in which hospitals come with long waiting lists by default. It's gonna take at least a month before my first appointment, and by then we're not even talking about treatment.
Up until a few weeks ago, DeviantArt was quite fun to me. Replying and making a lot of friends... you know the drill.
The recent happenings, however, have changed things in that. Over the last few weeks I've been told to die, slandered in the comments of journals for close to no reason, accused of tracing/copying, and had to deal with a hacking attempt as well. While I can usually just shrug, think to myself "haters gonna hate" and ignore... I lately find myself having troubles with that and thinking "fuck this shit" far too often.
The truth is; I don't have that much energy to spare lately. And I would like to spend that energy on things that I enjoy, rather than fretting over the fact that people can be so downwards hateful or having to defend myself from all kinds of stupid accusations. I know that strict moderation (simply block & delete everything that I dislike) might solve part of it. However, that doesn't change the fact that I still have to read stuff and spend energy on negativity. Energy that I don't have at the moment.
I realize that there are many nice people out here. Many people that feel sad to see me go.
I realize that the more people you gather, the more hate you'll eventually get. And that it's hard to avoid that kind of things when everything you submit gets 5000 views per default. Which led me to the conclusion that, rather than disabling comments, I should just stop uploading for a while and leave DA's inbox for what it is.
For now, I prefer to focus on actually making art and writing story's, rather than replying to all the comments.
Oh, and to give you something to do while I'm away:
I'm somewhere strangely curious about the amount of comments that will accumulate while I'm away and won't do my daily inbox-cleaning. So while we're at it;
The person that guesses the amount of messages --artworks excluded-- I have upon my return (or comes closes to this number), gets 500 points
Oh, and if you find yourself in need of some motivation in art; here ya go... 1 2 3 4 5 6 and some more
Or some random music; here
I won't be gone forever, so...
See you around!
TLDR version; I'll be gone for a while. Guess the amount of messages in my inbox upon return and win 500 points.
My health has become quite the issue over the last few months.
It seems like the recent car crash brought me more physical damage than I initially thought. Even though the doctors that checked me directly after the accident told me everything was fine, it has been everything but fine up until now. Despite daily training and many visits to the physical therapist, my neck is still hurt and the pain causes frequent migraine attacks. Needless to say; I've been nothing but tired until now, so badly that even attending my regular job has become quite the challenge. Most of the days I fall asleep straight after work, only to wake up still being tired the next morning. It's frustrating. The whole thing just feels like one big clusterfuck wrecking my body and, as for now, I haven't got a clue on how to deal with it.
I went to the doctor last week for a second opinion, and I will be send at the hospital for another checkup in time, as they assume it's a whiplash injury.
The problem is; things like these take time in a country like mine, in which hospitals come with long waiting lists by default. It's gonna take at least a month before my first appointment, and by then we're not even talking about treatment.
Up until a few weeks ago, DeviantArt was quite fun to me. Replying and making a lot of friends... you know the drill.
The recent happenings, however, have changed things in that. Over the last few weeks I've been told to die, slandered in the comments of journals for close to no reason, accused of tracing/copying, and had to deal with a hacking attempt as well. While I can usually just shrug, think to myself "haters gonna hate" and ignore... I lately find myself having troubles with that and thinking "fuck this shit" far too often.
The truth is; I don't have that much energy to spare lately. And I would like to spend that energy on things that I enjoy, rather than fretting over the fact that people can be so downwards hateful or having to defend myself from all kinds of stupid accusations. I know that strict moderation (simply block & delete everything that I dislike) might solve part of it. However, that doesn't change the fact that I still have to read stuff and spend energy on negativity. Energy that I don't have at the moment.
I realize that there are many nice people out here. Many people that feel sad to see me go.
I realize that the more people you gather, the more hate you'll eventually get. And that it's hard to avoid that kind of things when everything you submit gets 5000 views per default. Which led me to the conclusion that, rather than disabling comments, I should just stop uploading for a while and leave DA's inbox for what it is.
For now, I prefer to focus on actually making art and writing story's, rather than replying to all the comments.
Oh, and to give you something to do while I'm away:
I'm somewhere strangely curious about the amount of comments that will accumulate while I'm away and won't do my daily inbox-cleaning. So while we're at it;
The person that guesses the amount of messages --artworks excluded-- I have upon my return (or comes closes to this number), gets 500 points
Oh, and if you find yourself in need of some motivation in art; here ya go... 1 2 3 4 5 6 and some more
Or some random music; here
I won't be gone forever, so...
See you around!
TLDR version; I'll be gone for a while. Guess the amount of messages in my inbox upon return and win 500 points.
I'm still alive
It's been a while since I last posted and people have sending me worried messages, so I wanted to let you all know I'm doing fine. I don't have corona and I'm not dead. My computer broke down a while ago, and the consistent problems of working with a broken system and not having the money to properly fix or replace it eventually made me very demotivated to draw. As an artist I've always suffered from self-doubt and massive imposter syndrome. No matter how good I get, I'm always critical at my work. The last batch of commissions I did (even though for a good cause) just emphasized that feeling of not being creatively ready to venture into professional spheres. I honestly respect the people who do, but it's not for me. The pressure of having to churn out quality work on a time limit (next to my regular work) burned me out, and I needed some time off the internet to recuperate. Thank you all for your supportive messages. I'm trying to pick up my art again. Slowly, and working on my
Emergency commissions for vet bills [ON HOLD]
Update April 23, 2020
I'm literally blown away by all the response I got.
I have now filled up a first batch of commissions.
As much as will help me cover the initial bill. And as much as will be possible to deliver, considering I have to do those drawings in my free time (I have a regular job to attend as well).
I expect to deliver commissions somewhere over the upcoming 6 weeks.
Depending on the situation with the cat I might open up more commissions in the future.
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Hey guys.
My beloved cat, Pepper, fell sick. I had to go take her to the vet. It's at this moment yet uncertain what's wrong with her, but she needed to get b
Git gud
It's so tiring to hear people dismiss the ability to create art as sheer talent, and tell me they could never do the same as I do. What do you expect me to answer? That some divine being came down and blessed me with the ability to do art? And you haven't got that divine skill, so you never could do it, and we should all pity you for it?
The truth is that there isn't much of a difference, except that I spend a lot of time creating art. I learned how to draw hands, because I've drawn hundreds of them over the last couple of years. I learned writing because I write nearly every day, and read books when I don't. I spend a lot of time creating a
2019 art goals
Leaving this year as a reminder to myself.
:bulletblack: Drawing more detailed environments
:bulletgreen: Drawing more figures in perspective (Ref: http://www.posemaniacs.com/ ?)
:bulletgreen: Drawing more hands & feet
:bulletgreen: Finish writing my 5175 short story
:bulletblack: Joining#100headschallenge (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0A_kQsxeeTE)
:bulletred: Joining AdorkaStock (https://www.deviantart.com/adorkastock)'s DEJ 2019 (if organized this year)
If you're aware of any fun art challenges I might be interested in (geared towards improvement), please let me know.
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i don't know you but I will keep you in my prayers. i wish you a full recovery