And in contests you sees others art and art style, get some hint of their art so you can improve your own! that is actually whole the point with DA
I totally respect this and applaud you for admitting this whole thing, and you're totally RIGHT, at least you DO have the guts to admit it. unlike others out there (and it seems to be nearly everyone) at least you're BRAVE enough to tell the truth.
And don't worry, I'm not anywhere near as good as anyone on here but I'm in the same place as you, don't worry you're not alone, not at all.
I figure, if you keep trying to get better and better, work will tend to get better lol.
It happens. Offten for us. Just go with the breakdown. Some record every thought during the break down, to use later, but what ever you choose- just let it flow. There is catharsis in it. Break down. Let it all crumble around you, let yourself crumble, and when there is "nothing left", when you are empty, remember this:
You are feeling empty. You are there. The pieces are fallen all around you, but there you are.
Continue forward from that point. Continue forward to your next break down, and do it all again.
That's the one lesson I've learned well enough to feel confident to advise others in. Don't die, just shluff of the old, break under the pressure, let it all go, and then move forward through the dark, the empty, the directionless forward. Really, that's the only direction you ever go, however it may appear. There is no shame in the cleansing that comes from the loss. There is always more to move toward.
I'm glad that you came to this realization and feel better. Very brave of you to post about it.
I Know exactly what you mean in everything you've said. As a fellow writer, I know what you mean in that you fear what it is other people think of your work especially since you paint and and draw as well. I actually started writing in high school in a class i really didn't expect to like. Creative Writing I, and when I first entered the class, I was surprised by the number of people there. Thinking it over, I half expected most of them to be looking for an easy grade. By the end of the year, I was awing over everyone's pieces and talking with them all about what it is they do and want to do. It took me quite sometime to realize it, but the class slowly turned to me for endless opinions about their works, and the teacher referenced any of the works I had shared with her in almost any moment she had. I was astounded and extremely honored, but then I quickly grew concerned with what it is other people think of what it is I do and say. Of course people arose that completely disagreed with me on almost everything, but something I was always taught to do since I was little, was to understand what it is others are trying to say, because everyone and everything has a story, which leaves them with a reason, purpose, and a lesson to learn from. From all those that stood up against my pieces, calling them "trash" and "no good" (Which actually wasn't too often to be honest) only made me stronger in where I stand and open my mind to another world in which their opinions reside, for who they are isn't wrong, but what they say isn't necessarily true either. I think that in facing those that oppose you, as an artist can only make you stronger if you understand what it is they have to say and why. The only time you can be brought down in anything, not only art, is if you fail to understand why it is people say what they say, and refuse to accept that who you are is not who they are, and that who they are isn't a negative influence in your life, but another window for you to expand yourself through... Whether someone likes it or not, doesn't mean you should quit or continue. What makes you happy and what doesn't is what decides where you will go. What you feel as an artist is what puts together your work despite of who you are or what you look like. It puts together who you are, and no one can deny that. Those that refuse to understand only limit themselves.
Remember this: People say we can't control our feeling but that isn't true. We feel what we want to feel. There's nothing bad about being angry or sad or even depressed. It's just the way we feel we must feel at the moment. So don't try to make it go away or it'll get worse.
Sometimes, you just need to let it all out.
Only recently stumbling across you I agree with the masses that your work is amazing. Artist's block is never nice for anyone, let alone with feeling the added pressure from people considering it as an example.
Maybe take a break from uploading work? Draw what you want to and how you want to, ignore what other people say or do, it's your creation after all.
I'm sorry you feel this way, but all the best that everything gets better soon. ^.^
You will definitely make an error somewhere along the way, but it won't be what you expected, and the things you worried about won't be nearly as important when they happen as they were when you thought of them. The only way to get to the top of the mountain is to make your own path.
Also, I highly suggest mind mapping.
Wow! This is apparently a common feeling in an artists life, even among people that are obviously good like you.
I pretty much have to learn everything on my own, starting with English... when I got to the U.S I did not speak any English and the job I got was was salling magazines door to door across the country.
With in a month I understood everyone most of the time but they sure did not understand a word I was saying, it took several frustrating months, and sometimes if I am in a place like Kentucky when I speak, people look at my husband in a "what did she said kind of way..."
And just like in that story, the things I learn on my own, like drawing or painting I absolutely doubt myself.
Wondering how much better I would be if someone actually teach me in stead of me trying to learn on my own, especially "writing" since in that category I don't get a single comment,
that kind of let me know I suck, I just don't know how much since people won't say a word when they read my stuff LOL.
also afraid that people would see my stuff and say that's garbage,
but even when I am afraid and have little to no technic I still make things, simply because it makes me happy to come up with new stuff
It might not help in any way, but at least it gave me some insight in how it works.
However, as you said, the problem is not only that you might your art isn’t that great but also your rising fame on here.
I can’t give you any real advice on that matter for obvious reasons, but then again, sometimes it’s easier to analyze a problem from a distance. You struggle with being called an example since you feel like you owe it to those people to only create great things and also have to act like an example – however that might be.
However, think about it: all your watchers followed you because they thought your art was looking good, because your stories amused or touched them or because they liked your opinions that you wrote down in your journals. I can imagine there being a lot of pressure with the amount of attention you get here, but it all comes down to the fact that you’ve gotten this far simply by being yourself and doing what you liked. There is absolutely no reason to change that.
Furthermore, when it comes to people you an example, I bet you yourself have lots of examples that inspire you to continue doing what you like to do. Are all of their galleries filled with perfect work where no one can point out anything that might have been done better? I bet not.
Even though it’s personal, if I look at my examples on here and in real life they all show some ‘flaws’ in their work or character, which only makes them more interesting. I personally don’t care about the artist that only has perfect art in their gallery, they become boring.
You don’t. I think the reason why people might view you as an example is because you didn’t seem to be afraid on here to voice your opinion, show your work and use the critique you got on them to become better. They might see you as an example because you show progress and thát’s what inspires others to try and do the same.
It’s easier said than done, but try and create your work for yourself as you’ve done so far, instead of creating stories, art and voicing opinions for the sake of others.
I would like to end this rant with a quote that, if I remember correctly, you yourself used as a signature on a certain forum once, which holds up more now than ever it seems.
“Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self”.
There will always be people who will love your artwork and some will dislike. And few might remain neutral. And among these, there will be some who will make discouraging/derogatory remarks. One shouldn't let such worthless remarks affect his|her work. On the other hand, a well-informed, well-rounded criticism can go a long way in improving oneself as an artist. Due to our biases, we might fail to see from certain perspectives. Constructive criticism provides that. World is full of cynicism and negativity. Still, there are so many 'Deviants' here, willing to support and promote the work of others.
I think, art is something that can provide a niche for each and everyone who has the will to keep improving. From what I gather (in my week as a deviant ) you (DamaiMikaz) embody that sentiment. May be that is the reason why most others look up to you as an inspiration.
Anyways, continue to love your art and continue to amaze your watchers. Good luck!!
The easiest way for me to overcome a block is simply writing, without thinking. Let the story write itself. Don't doubt, don't feel insecure, don't THINK. Just have fun.
Then, when you're done, put it away for a little while (30 mins.) and do something else. Again, no feeling insecure or thinking about your story. Let someone else read it, someone you trust will give you an honest and unbiased opinion. Ask how he/she feels about it. Only now should you read it again, think a just a little bit. Change your grammar mistakes, reform sentences to sound better and think about where your story is going. You can also write out a few different scenarios and then simply choose the one you like most.
Anyway art block isn't a failure, it happens to everyone. No one will say you've disappointed them if you make a mistake. Also (no offence) I didn't think of you as being "oh-so-perfect", the reason I watched you was simply because I thought you weren't afraid of voicing your opinion and I admired that. Because I never do, simply to avoid trouble.
I hope you (re)find your inspiration to write. Sorry for the long comment..
I seem to do the same thing man, all artists do to a degree, but that's what drives an artist, because what an artist explores doesn't exist yet
versus a scientist, or technician who is driven to understand the practical, what actually exists
those are two examples, but it seems the world doesn't change as much as I first thought no matter which side ur on.
You are brave to admit it to your fans while I only have a selected amount of people I share my epic fails to. If you need a break from the "popular" trend take a break because when you aren't enjoying it you won't do it. So take a break relax and collect yourself back together. Come back when you feel completely refreshed and invigorated. Chat with friends, make new friends, and do something different to help you relax. I am sure everyone will be here otherwise can you truly call them a fan? Anyways take all the time you need dear. I would prefer you to take a break compared to rush yourself. Take care of yourself Damai and I look forward to seeing you refreshed!
“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”
It'll come to you, don't push it. The more you worry, the worse it becomes. And as for feeling insecure, probably nothing I say will stop you feeling insecure, but I'd still like to say that I think your work is absolutely amazing!
Here's some great quotes to help you:
Also, if you're getting stuck, you're probably drawing for others. What's important when drawing or writing is to do what YOU like, not what everyone ELSE likes. THAT's what makes a good artist great, because if YOU like it, and have fun with it, it's really easy to see in the results.
Personally, sometimes I will go to start a project, but then I think what if... what if I get criticized due to the content of my work... what if someone finds what I make offensive... because often it can be hard to be real. It can be hard to hold a firm opinion on some topics and stay true to it, even when there are others who disagree.
Art though should not always be made to please. Art should be an artists artistic expression, even if sometimes bizarre or strange, art is much more powerful (to me) when it is real and raw and interesting to look at (and not the same overused fan-art and chbi styles which plague the internet.)
That is why I think you are sometimes sort of an inspiration. You seem to tend to stay true to yourself, and though I'm sure all artists go through the same artistic anxiety it's not a bad thing. If you see something that is wrong than you will work to fix it, and so you will continue to improve. Then one day you will look back at your old drawings (comparatively) and see how you have grown.
So, don't feel like you're the only one. I'm sure there are lots of artists in a similar position (one also being myself), just keep doing what you love and love what you do. It's ok to feel insecure, but don't let your insecurities bring you down. You should keep trying no matter how many obstacles are thrown in your path and I'm sure you'll get to where you want to be one day. If you get rejected at first, well hey it happens, but just don't forget to learn from your experience so you can improve in the future ^__^